…Clueless

…”Aap bari ho”…

…FINALLY!

… a lot …

Somebody… anybody… you…

Its a little peculiar and I’ve only recently noticed this - I enjoy sadness. I like getting depressed. I like to have that pain shoot up inside of me. I like the feeling when my head gets so heavy that tears just trickle out of my eyes. I don’t know what to make of this condition because overall I’m quite happy and satisfied with my life. In fact, life’s never felt better and the future’s never looked so promising.

Then why do I find myself constantly listening to sad and depressing songs, watching movies that make me wanna cry (yes CRY!)… It’s beyond my reasoning. I’m not troubled by this recent revelation but I’m so fucking curious to find out the reason behind all this.

On my playlist : Seether - Waste.

People are outside… partying… somehow this New Year scares me…

Anyways, Happy New Year… hopefully.

…and every Indian is celebrating as if they won a lottery.

So India finally did it!! Against all odds, India finally managed to win the Twenty20 World Cup. Yes, a World Cup… that’s quite an achievement for our team. Sreesanth probably took the most memorable catch of his life. Harbhajan bowled one of the worst overs ever. Joginder Sharma was his normal crappy self as always. But we won.

The whole of Chandigarh celebrated. People dancing. Roads jammed… guys on roof of cars… dancing… the police failing miserably to control them. Rickshaw pullers, daily wagers on their bicycles… howling. Foreigners busy clicking pictures of kids sitting on the windows of their cars. TV reporters following insane fans on scooters. This was the scene in Chandigarh.

I don’t wish to write anymore. I have my exam tomorrow and I haven’t studied a word. I’ll leave you with a video of people celebrating inside (and outside) Café Coffee Day, Sector 35, Chandigarh. Truly amazing. Wonder what’s there in cricket that unites every Indian. Maybe it was the fact that we beat Pakistan!! JAI HIND!!

EDIT : Check out the condensation and water droplets falling from the AC vents. Might give you an idea of how hot (and crowded) it was in there!! Fun, nevertheless… better than watching at the stadium.

I flunked in three exams in the first sem. I cleared all of them. Only one remains which is a mass repeat. Will hopefully clear that exam as well.
A lesson that I learnt was that it’s never to late to correct what went wrong. Better than crying and committing suicide.

Currently listening to :
Three Days Grace - Never Too Late

Love… Humbles you… grounds you…

Finally I’m back on the blog.

A lot has happened since my last post and even before it but I didn’t get time to write it down.

I bought a new phone, a Nokia N73 Music Edition. One beautiful gadget it is. My sister got married. I’ll put up some pictures soon. My college attendance touched an all time low. I met with a very deadly road accident; nothing serious happened to me but could have. Lets say I was a little lucky this time, escaped unhurt.

But there were fun times too. I spent a great deal of time with my girl, meeting up with her almost everyday. But then there were fights with her too.

And I think something’s happened to me, I get very tired towards the end of the day almost everyday which caused a lot of mood swings and thus causing a lot of fights with lotsa people.

I’m hating myself at the moment but I don’t know what else to do.

Ummm… I guess something is wrong with me. I say something, people hear something else. Causing too many misunderstandings.
No one’s ready to listen to my side of the story. They just get angry.

Better go kill myself.